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justablueumbrella:

justablueumbrella:

What does happiness feel like? 
I’m sorry this took a couple days to respond to.  Basically, I stared at this question for a while trying to figure out how to put it into words.  
Later that night, when I was lying in bed in the dark about to fall asleep, I pulled up my phone’s notepad and started typing away, in a stream of consciousness about how I might answer this question.  
I spilled out the following text all at once.  I explained some of the bits and pieces in parenthesis.  I hope it helps you, and I promise you you will know all of these feelings in time. <3

What does happiness feel like?   
(by justablueumbrella, 1:30AM)

worth it
change
the view of the fields from that train window (I spontaneously started crying happy tears on a train a couple months ago)
cliff jumping (something bold and fun I did for the first time last year)
tossing the graduation cap
grinning lying in bed
grinning walking home
looking up at the stars around a campfire with your friends before you all leave for college
dancing in the crowd at a concert of your favorite band
trying something totally new and loving it
learning to love yourself unconditionally
getting up in the morning and being naturally excited, putting on music and dancing while you get dressed because you’re so darn cute and you love this song and it’s gonna be a good day no matter what
thorough appreciation of self, knowing how powerful and capable and precious you are
loving and appreciating your body
being proud of your mind
being kind and helping people going through the same things you did
singing your favorite song super loud in the car
laughing with friends who you know love you
it’s like the same butterflies and confusing joy of falling head over heels in love, but it’s with life itself, and it’s so amazing
The excitement for the future, you’re so excited
The opposite of depression.  In every aspect.  It’s so real, it’s so golden and good and worth it, and it’s in your future.
Dancing, lots of fast dancing because you can’t hold it in, and lots of posing in the mirror, because you are just so happy to be
Singing your favorite songs in the shower and imagining yourself on a stage and wondering why you couldn’t totally be a pop star
Being fearless and wanting to take chances
The mirror is your best friend and cheerleader, not your bully
Your favorite songs will mean new things to you
You’ll find inspiration in more and more things and more easily as you get better and better
Lots of uncontrollable grins and butterflies and epiphanies while walking and constant change.  Confidence, fearlessness and self-assurance.
Knowing you’re everything that you need to be, walking naturally with your chin up, without any fear or anxiety, like the sidewalk/hallway is your runway
Deep breaths and feeling light, no weight on your shoulders, like you could run and dance and talk to anyone or sing at any moment
It’s not only not being afraid of people and strangers, it’s walking with long strides and actually hoping they look at you because you look awesome
It’s a totally different attitude about yourself and life, it’s not that anything in particular has changed, it’s just a totally new mind
When you can’t sleep because you’re so inspired and there are things to fantasize about and create in your mind and look forward to and music to listen to and being awake is finally better than being asleep
Being able to have a crush and not be crushed by it because you’re confident enough to pursue it
Taking tons of pictures of yourself because you want to
Traveling, adventuring, making new friends
It feels like your soul is awake and twirling and dancing, and it’s so beautiful
Knowing and acknowledging the things and people that hurt you in the past (including high school as an institution), but not being bitter anymore because it’s not worth your emotional energy
It will get easier, you will get closer gradually, and soon you will feel it changing, you will wake up less angry than before.  It will take time, there will be good days and bad, it’s not a straight line, but you will feel it and learn through it about yourself and life and what depression/mental illness really is and does, and it’s so worth everything.   Your recovery is the single best and most important thing you will ever work on. 


I hope my rambling there helped you.  You are going to get better, I promise, and you can always talk to me.  <3  

I just came across something else I jotted down a while ago.  These sound like lyrics to me - comparing what it feels like to fantasize about death to what recovering feels like:Happiness is what hit me like a trainFalling in love is what blew through my brainAnd I couldn’t be more grateful that everything has changed

justablueumbrella:

justablueumbrella:

What does happiness feel like?

I’m sorry this took a couple days to respond to.  Basically, I stared at this question for a while trying to figure out how to put it into words.  

Later that night, when I was lying in bed in the dark about to fall asleep, I pulled up my phone’s notepad and started typing away, in a stream of consciousness about how I might answer this question.  

I spilled out the following text all at once.  I explained some of the bits and pieces in parenthesis.  I hope it helps you, and I promise you you will know all of these feelings in time. <3

What does happiness feel like?  

(by justablueumbrella, 1:30AM)

worth it

change

the view of the fields from that train window (I spontaneously started crying happy tears on a train a couple months ago)

cliff jumping (something bold and fun I did for the first time last year)

tossing the graduation cap

grinning lying in bed

grinning walking home

looking up at the stars around a campfire with your friends before you all leave for college

dancing in the crowd at a concert of your favorite band

trying something totally new and loving it

learning to love yourself unconditionally

getting up in the morning and being naturally excited, putting on music and dancing while you get dressed because you’re so darn cute and you love this song and it’s gonna be a good day no matter what

thorough appreciation of self, knowing how powerful and capable and precious you are

loving and appreciating your body

being proud of your mind

being kind and helping people going through the same things you did

singing your favorite song super loud in the car

laughing with friends who you know love you

it’s like the same butterflies and confusing joy of falling head over heels in love, but it’s with life itself, and it’s so amazing

The excitement for the future, you’re so excited

The opposite of depression.  In every aspect.  It’s so real, it’s so golden and good and worth it, and it’s in your future.

Dancing, lots of fast dancing because you can’t hold it in, and lots of posing in the mirror, because you are just so happy to be

Singing your favorite songs in the shower and imagining yourself on a stage and wondering why you couldn’t totally be a pop star

Being fearless and wanting to take chances

The mirror is your best friend and cheerleader, not your bully

Your favorite songs will mean new things to you

You’ll find inspiration in more and more things and more easily as you get better and better

Lots of uncontrollable grins and butterflies and epiphanies while walking and constant change.  Confidence, fearlessness and self-assurance.

Knowing you’re everything that you need to be, walking naturally with your chin up, without any fear or anxiety, like the sidewalk/hallway is your runway

Deep breaths and feeling light, no weight on your shoulders, like you could run and dance and talk to anyone or sing at any moment

It’s not only not being afraid of people and strangers, it’s walking with long strides and actually hoping they look at you because you look awesome

It’s a totally different attitude about yourself and life, it’s not that anything in particular has changed, it’s just a totally new mind

When you can’t sleep because you’re so inspired and there are things to fantasize about and create in your mind and look forward to and music to listen to and being awake is finally better than being asleep

Being able to have a crush and not be crushed by it because you’re confident enough to pursue it

Taking tons of pictures of yourself because you want to

Traveling, adventuring, making new friends

It feels like your soul is awake and twirling and dancing, and it’s so beautiful

Knowing and acknowledging the things and people that hurt you in the past (including high school as an institution), but not being bitter anymore because it’s not worth your emotional energy

It will get easier, you will get closer gradually, and soon you will feel it changing, you will wake up less angry than before.  It will take time, there will be good days and bad, it’s not a straight line, but you will feel it and learn through it about yourself and life and what depression/mental illness really is and does, and it’s so worth everything.   Your recovery is the single best and most important thing you will ever work on. 

I hope my rambling there helped you.  You are going to get better, I promise, and you can always talk to me.  <3  

I just came across something else I jotted down a while ago. These sound like lyrics to me - comparing what it feels like to fantasize about death to what recovering feels like:

Happiness is what hit me like a train
Falling in love is what blew through my brain
And I couldn’t be more grateful that everything has changed

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Mythology Asks

  • Anubis: How do you feel about death?
  • Atum: What are your greatest imperfections?
  • Bastet: Do you have any cats?
  • Hathor: What brings you joy?
  • Horus: What is one thing you've had to fight for in your life?
  • Osiris: Do you believe in the underworld?
  • Ra: Do you have any major responsibilities or importance?
  • Thoth: Do you like to read/write?
  • Arawn: What is the most terrifying thing you've ever done?
  • Bran: How is your health?
  • Brighid: Tell us about your relationship with your father.
  • Cernunnos: What is your favorite animal?
  • Danu: What is your relationship with your mother?
  • Morrigan: What do you think happens when we die?
  • Olwen: What is your favorite flower?
  • Rhiannon: Have you ever been betrayed?
  • Bragi: What kind of music do you listen to?
  • Freya: Have you ever been in love?
  • Freyr: Do you have any children?
  • Hœnir: Are you a silent or talkative person?
  • Iounn: How old are you?
  • Loki: What is the best trick you've ever pulled on someone?
  • Odin: What is your family like?
  • Thor: Would you consider yourself pretty powerful?
  • Tree: What have you done with your life? What are you going to do with it?
  • Aphrodite: What do you think of yourself?
  • Ares: Are you an easy person to anger?
  • Athena: Would you consider yourself an artist?
  • Apollo: Do you play any instruments?
  • Dionysus: Do you drink?
  • Hades: Do you have a bad reputation?
  • Hekate: Have you ever tried to communicate with the dead?
  • Hermes: Have you ever stolen anything?
  • Poseidon: Are you a moody person?
  • Zeus: Are you a confident person?
  • Jupiter: Would people say that you are intimidating or fairly approachable?
  • Pluto: Where do you think we go when we die?
  • Apollo &amp; Dianna: Do you prefer to be up during the day or at night?
  • Mars: Have you ever gotten into a fight?
  • Minerva: Do you generally give good advice?
  • Proserpine: Have you ever felt trapped?
  • Plutus: Do you have a job?
  • Venus: Have you ever had your heart broken?
  • Vesta: Do you like being home or do you try to get out whenever you can?
  • Morpheus: Do you daydream often? Of what?
solarcandydrops:

sailorzombiestar:

coelasquid:

you-wish-you-had-this-url:

221cbakerstreet:

charlotteiq:

jade-cooper:

sarah-belham:

"The Favorite" by Omar Rayyan

Favorite what? Demon?!

Loving the fact that whatever it is is wearing a matching flower.

18th century Lilo and Stitch

so i looked up some of this guys other stuff and I

uh

what the fuck

sexy parrot girls yeah ok

oh look the demon has little babies


I dig it.

I want all of these framed.


Those children are STRONG

solarcandydrops:

sailorzombiestar:

coelasquid:

you-wish-you-had-this-url:

221cbakerstreet:

charlotteiq:

jade-cooper:

sarah-belham:

"The Favorite" by Omar Rayyan

Favorite what? Demon?!

Loving the fact that whatever it is is wearing a matching flower.

18th century Lilo and Stitch

so i looked up some of this guys other stuff and I

uh

what the fuck

sexy parrot girls yeah ok

oh look the demon has little babies

I dig it.

I want all of these framed.

Those children are STRONG

Anonymous said: so now that Cry got his little tantrum out, why doesn't the LNC stop streaming and getting money from the "little shits" that pay everyone's bills? if he and you all want to just be a group of friends who play games without the input of viewers, stop streaming all together. i can't even comprehend how entitled the LNC sounds nowadays.

peptobisbutt:

cryaotic:

scottjund:

4/10. Thought it was serious for a moment.

3/10. Grammar deduction is happening right now.

10/10 Cry’s Dick

tommybishops:

splderwoman:

DEADPOOL WILL HAVE HIS OWN MOVIE

DEADPOOL WILL HAVE HIS OWN MOVIE

DEADPOOL WILL HAVE HIS OWN MOVIE

DEADPOOL WILL HAVE HIS OWN MOVIE

IN 2016 (x)

"[Deadpool] will actually have no connection to the one that was in Wolverine," said Reynolds.

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So my mom brought this for my for my birthday (or she thought it was cute) and its nice, I didn&#8217;t know my name ment flower xD

So my mom brought this for my for my birthday (or she thought it was cute) and its nice, I didn’t know my name ment flower xD

adirred:

rebekyboo:

timelordy-teganbreann:

seblaine:

australian adverts are slowly becoming my favourite

omg



This rivalry’s heating up.

adirred:

rebekyboo:

timelordy-teganbreann:

seblaine:

australian adverts are slowly becoming my favourite

omg

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This rivalry’s heating up.